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[Feb. 14th, 2004|06:51 pm] |
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| | Something Corporate--> Ruthless | ] |
I've never been paid to sing before, it was kinda nice :)
We made a lot of old people really happy, too. And there was this lady there that was an agent or something that was talking to my mom about "getting me started" as a country singer. But I doubt I'll do it, though, she said something about "easy payment plans" which means it's probably hella expensive. Then Jess flipped out and got her number from my mom. 'Twas cute.
But damn, I'm never singing that stupid valentine's day song agin. Evarrr. Then afterwards we all went out to lunch with some guy (the manager, I think?) at this awesome mexican food restaurant. Then I came home and passed out. Ohhh, sweet sleep.
The weather is back to being nasty, though, so we still have yet to move my Spirit. :( Poor baby, stuck in a mud pit with an evil ignorant woman that doesn't blanket horses in 30* weather. >:|
So uh...I'm spending the rest of Valentine's day cleaning tack. Someone feel like taking me on a hot date?
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*crickets chirping*
....sigh. |
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[Feb. 14th, 2004|02:09 am] |
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| |  ecstatic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Garbage--> Sleep Together | ] |
alkesjfap'weojrfasldkjfa;sldjkfl/kj1!!!!!!!!
I've lived here my entire life and I've never seen it snow so much! I mean, like, REAL snow! EEEEEE!!!!! |
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[Feb. 14th, 2004|12:43 am] |
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| |  content | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Beatles--> If I fell | ] |
Movie night was good.
I got flowers and chocolate and a teddy bear :)
Horse show is cancelled because here in the south, we're pussies about a little sleet. So I might not even be moving Spirit until Sunday or Monday, either. So yeah, nothing really worth updating about.
Me and Jess are singing at HEB tomorrow from 11 till 12:20, come see us :) |
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| It's my party... |
[Feb. 10th, 2004|12:02 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  apathetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bright Eyes--> No lies, Just love | ] |
So, today's my birthday.
Only this morning my mom is like, "Well, we're going to kind of pretend that today isn't your birthday, since bad things tend to happen every year, and we won't be going out to dinner."
She deemed the puppy (that I got a month ago) my birthday present, and that was that. My mother cancelled my birthday.
But those of you who know me well are probably aware of my birthday curse. Well, it has been in full effect, as was to be expected, but a week early this year. Yup, my parents are now facing a possible divorce, my pony got evicted, and my mom decided that I assuredly pale in comparison to my wonderful sisters. She reminds me of this at every possible opportunity. So yay, a whole week of happy fun this year instead of the usual day! I'm so excited!
My darling sister called me around midnight to wish me a happy birthday "before anyone had a chance to ruin it". Hmm, thanks Erin. But I did, however, get my solo into cabaret. Hah, as my anonymous stalker said, I auditioned for the 'stupid contest' and 'passed with ugly colors'. wheeeee.
Umm. And my best friend thinks he's in love with me. I don't know what to do.
--aj |
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[Feb. 3rd, 2004|07:49 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  stressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Goo Goo Dolls--> Here is Gone | ] |
I really wish I hadn't come home today. |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2004|06:11 pm] |
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| |  relieved | ] |
whew.
Finally got all of my solo auditioning out of the way. You know I don't mind performing, but try outs are scary. It's like standing there saying "Here, someone judge me! Please! Criticism, anyone?" gaaaaaahhhh. Glad that's over.
But yeah, that's about it. Typical monday spent sleeping through most of my classes. Tomorrow I have one more audition with Jessica and then they're all overrrrr. *dances* |
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[Jan. 31st, 2004|10:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  nostalgic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | starting line--> best of me | ] |
I'm talking to Jenny.
.....
This just so strange. I really don't know how I got the courage to IM her...It was kind of random. I sort of snuck up on myself, caught my pride off-guard and asked her to speak to me and she did.
I don't understand it...it's like we've never met before. We're two completely different people that have never used to be best friends, that never used to borrow each other's clothes, that never used to hold each other when we cried.
It's awkward.
But then, what can you expect after having not spoken at all for almost a year? I'm really lost as to how to feel right now. One side of me is nervous and uncomfortable, and sad that it's come down to this. The other side of me just wants to grab her by the shoulders, shake her and yell "Snap out of it! It's ME, can't you remember? Amy? We used to be sisters, I used to love you!"...But then again, how would I know that she felt that way about me? She did just randomly quit talking to me all of the sudden, after all. Good friends wouldn't do that without at least an explanation.
It feels as if we're strangers. This isn't the girl that I used to play ping pong with until odd hours of the night, or eat chinese food out of styrofoam containers with standing up in her kitchen in our pajamas.
I hate it. I hate the formality and the distance. I hate being strangers to one another. I wanted to start crying, but I think that I can hold myself together...maybe... |
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[Jan. 23rd, 2004|12:01 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dashboard Confessional--> Best Deceptions | ] |
So I'm in netweb. I was 5 minutes late to class (Courty and I decided to switch shirts) and Ms. Jones handed me this little slip of paper to fill out, asking me why I was late to class. I put down that I had gotten lost and she excused the tardy.
Stupid teachers are fun.
Tomorrow Jolie and I are driving out to the middle of podunk country bumpkinville to pick up 2 new ponies. One is a lil shetland that she's going to use for lessons, and the other is a 5 y/o Welsh. She's been insinuating that he's to be one of my new projects, lol. The current owner seems to think that he has good potential for the pony hunter ring, so this should be fun, and from the things I've heard about him he's a lot like Spirit. So we'll see how this goes, I guess.
( Pictures ) |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2004|12:20 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  good | ] |
| [ | music |
| | American Hi Fi--> Another Perfect Day | ] |
This weekend was good.
I spent a lot of time with Travis, he came over on saturday and we talked for a long time. He helped me realize a few important things that I'm not quite ready to talk about here yet. Then on sunday he woke me up and dragged me to the mall. Bleh. I'm starting to hate the mall. Anyway he had to get an outfit for court, so we did that, and went to best buy and fye. Haha it was sad, I wish i had money to buy cds. Damn horses.
Then we went to his house, his mom made us spaghetti (haha i <3 that woman), we watched this one starting line video like 90820398432 times because travis is compulsive, and he tried to make me play football with him. HAH. Definately not happening. Went home around 5, drove around...don't remember what i did monday. Hmm.
Last night was good.
Went to Viktor's, because Josh and Britani were still shunning him at the time, but eventually they cracked and came over to get high. Jason and I slept in this really uncomfortable chair with bad trance music blasting 10 feet away--How we managed that one, I don't know. Then we woke up and watched jackass, then went home and went back to sleep.
Viktor drove 40 miles over the speed limit. And it's ironic, how on the way to come pick me up, he got pulled over by will co for speeding (he has a warrant out in leander, i think) and somehow got off with a warning. Jason said it was funny, he was all ready to go to jail when the cop was walking up--like, "Here's your lighter, man, and the five bucks I owe you, and the keys..."
Anyway. Today was good too.
Got a lot of school stuff done. Got a date to the winter ball. It's usually kind of hard to find dates to choir social events, you know? Can't imagine why.
Went to Jessica's, practiced our duet. We're singing TOTAL ECLIPSE OF THE HEART!
So I'm gonna go sleep now, at a reasonable hour, for the first time in almost 2 weeks. Anyone who decides to wake me up will be dead before I completely regain conciousness--fair warning. |
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[Jan. 20th, 2004|10:14 pm] |
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| |  excited | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Beatles | ] |
Stolen from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) miniaturize
01: what is your first memory of me:
02: how long have we been friends:
03: tell about one memory we share together (good or bad):
04: describe me in four adjectives:
05: name one thing you really don't like about me:
06: name one thing you really do like about me:
07: have we ever gotten in a fight & about what:
08: have we ever hugged:
09: have you ever seen me cry:
10: have i ever offended you:
11: what is something embarrassing that i've done:
12: what do i usually look like when you see me:
13: what do i say all the time/whats my catch phrase:
14: do you think we will be friends in 5 years:
15: do you think i am bitchy/an asshole:
16: has there been anything you wanted to tell me, but didn't:
17: what advice would you give me, in general:
18: wanna make out:
19: suggest a band/cd for me to listen to:
20: is there a song that reminds you of me:
>>>>>>>
Do you love Amy?
Do you wish you could just reach through the screen and give her a hug?
DO YOU HAVE TOO MUCH FREE TIME?
Well then, have we got the solution for you!
Step right up to Amy's user info page, and give her virtual hugs!
She's been stuck at 140 for a very long time, and it's starting to get depressing. |
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[Jan. 17th, 2004|11:25 pm] |
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| |  energetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bad techno on the radio | ] |
My seestar's birthday cake! Hah the lady looked at me funny when I told her what to write on it.
Travis and I tried to make origami things. This is his crane.
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[Jan. 17th, 2004|02:33 pm] |
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| |  pissed off | ] |
From taylin
Recommend to me:
1. A movie.
2. A book.
3. A musical artist, song, or album.
4. An LJ user not on my friends list.
Copy and Paste with your answers in my comments. Then copy and paste the questions in your own journal.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
This is fucking lame.
Travis got a day pass to come visit, and he called and said he wanted to spend some time with me, and all was well, right? Then all the sudden his dad comes back and says "Well, I don't know, you shouldn't be hanging out with the people you used to do drugs with." And now he won't let him hang out with me.
I don't do drugs, and when I did, I never did them with Travis. If I have to take a drug test to be able to see my best friend, whom I haven't seen in months, I'll do it. |
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[Jan. 15th, 2004|03:10 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pensive | ] |
| [ | music |
| | American Hi Fi--> Another perfect day | ] |
Home sick, kind of. I stayed out a lil late last night (errr...6 am) and just didn't wake up this morning. I rolled over and looked at my alarm clock (in pieces on the floor, I must have thrown it again) and then went downstairs. It was ten after nine, and my mom didn't even say anything about going to school. So I didn't.
Aaanyway. Last night was awesome. I got to see my Cole (<3333) and Jason drew all over me. It looks really cool, and Josh took pictures, but I don't think I can post them here...
Jason was going through another one of his guilt trips, and went for a walk in the rain wearing pants, slippers, and a trench coat. That boy has no sense of temperature, I swear. I tried to take a nap but couldn't, so I started this book that Josh is making me read--The Age of Reason by Thomas Paine.
But he came back and we were curled up in Elliah's closet, talking for hours. I was completely honest with him, which is hard to do sometimes, but there were a lot of things that just needed to be said. I can't see myself staying with him forever, like he says he does with me. I don't trust him, and he's not ready for commitment. He sounded hurt, which in turn hurt me, but all he said was "I'm not asking you to believe me, only to remember. I'm going to prove myself to you."
He spent so much time apologizing, even though he knows that his words to me mean nothing. Even Travis's letters have shifted into a more dramatic, apologetic tone, and I've just been feeling so overwhelmed lately, you know? I don't know what to make of it.
If only I could tell sincerity from desperation... |
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| wasting time... |
[Jan. 14th, 2004|09:06 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | procrastinating | ] |
| [ | music |
| | fenix tx--> time | ] |
STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE!
MY KITTY!
CARE BEAR WATCH!
Thank you for your time. |
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[Jan. 14th, 2004|08:37 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sore | ] |
| [ | music |
| | New found glory, I'm such a loser. | ] |
Eeep, every inch of my body is sore. Anyone feel like giving me a full-body massage?
Eh, didn't think so.
EVERYONE WITH YAHOO MESSENGER SHOULD ADD NEONNEVERLAND.
Well, I better go finish homework and respond to a letter that I'm really not sure how to react to. Gotta love those.
In the meantime, ( look what happens when my darling Kay Leigh gets ahold of photoshop... ) |
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[Jan. 13th, 2004|07:50 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  frustrated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH | ] |
I need someone to rant to about work or I'm going to EXPLODE. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 12th, 2004|05:43 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | DJ Shadow--> Organ donor | ] |
:) My little sister is 14 today! Everyone should go here and leave her lots of happy birthday comments! Aaaand...tell her she's beautiful!
I love my kayla <333333
Last night was fun. Except me and jason got this insane craving for pineapple, and all the grocery stores were closed. :( But brittani and I made babies. So its all good, we're gonna sell them to get Allen out of jail.
Today would have been fun if I hadn't gotten my Courtney in trouble. Court, I am soooooo so so sosooooooo sorry. I'll make it up to you somehow, I promise.
But anyway. Waiting for a phone call and for my sister, so in the meantime...
( Pictures of my equine child ) |
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